Adaptasi

Hello,back again after several months of hiatus. ingin sekali berbagi cerita setelah 3 bulan menjalani masa adaptasi. masa2 ini bisa dibilang sulit,sulit dan sangat sulit. aku akan fokus untuk menceritakan kejadian dan orang2 yang kutemui selama adaptasi ini. untuk cerita pribadi dan keluarga akan kuceritakan di lain waktu. sambil ngetik enaknya dengerin lagu olivia rodrigo-vampire. Awal mula adaptasi bener2 seperti diterpa badai,aku sakit diare dan harus dirawat 3 hari di RS. uniknya di hari pertama,pas lg di IGD,aku disuruh masuk kelas untuk penerimaan. like this people keep saying you cant be sick for being a doctor. damn it,aku sendiri ga ingin seperti ini. im a human. well fast forward to the day for examination in one department. i got a lunatic doc that gave me lots of question. like a lot. and she doubts me for not doing really well like she would do. the most annoying is whenever she talked,both her eyes were glued to the phone. she kept blabbering about how busy her life and the most crazy statement she said is,you cant rely on CT,MRI for the true diagnosis. the correct way is how to interviewed the patient and physical examination. the most fucked up is when she asked me why it took me that long to take this adaptation programme and why i chose this city. she said to herself that i must chose this city because its easy and the reason why i went to study abroad because i failed the local university exam. LOL. laugh at my ass,i went to a well developed country and it had increadible machines to diagnosed almost everything and i didnt even try or apply to local uni. its crazy how people judge you like that. she kept asking how a radiotherapy person see a patient and finally gave a treatment plan for a patient without further diagnostic examination. wow im not a professor but from where i learn,i cant just interview and do physical examination then suddenly gave the radiotherapy plan. im no God but this is why so many people dont trust their local doctor,a perfect look of narcisstic and angkuh doctor that so self absorbed and think they are smarter than anyone else,no need to seek second opinion or just a simple diagnostic exam. in the end,that person failed me and im the only one that failed. no second chance like other people,just me failing and left alone. well thats it. one department,one month,one teacher that failed me,and one idiot which is me btw. :)